[Stephen takes in a breath to argue, then reconsiders. There are worse things. Not waking up from surgery like a normal person, but he understands that there are worse things.]
[He doesn't think that Stephen is an inherently cruel person, he just lacks Bucky's perspective on the situation. It's to be expected, he'd be more worried if he did understand the perspective.]
[He couldn't compartmentalize. Couldn't turn off the part of his brain that saw Bucky as a person and look at his body purely as something to be fixed.
He doesn't think that will go over well.]
You were awake and I knew it. Of course it was different.
[He doesn't really get it, he was as still and silent as someone under could be, but it clearly got to Stephen all the same. He shrugs, accepting that it had taken a toll.]
I won't ask you to do it again.
[Though the anaesthetic for his arm was a one off.]
[He's interested about those other things, because he doesn't remember hearing about Stephen Strange back home and that worries him. Someone this powerful should be on his radar. But now isn't the time.]
I hope not too.
[He shifts from foot to foot slightly, clearly uncomfortable.]
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Date: 2018-08-20 08:49 pm (UTC)What good would that have done anyone? I don't make a practice of withholding treatment over grudges.
[Just over other petty things like money and level of interest back when he did this for a living...but never mind that.]
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Date: 2018-08-23 08:31 am (UTC)Yeah, well-- it was kinder to Renart and John to have it done that way. And I already hurt 'em enough.
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Date: 2018-08-24 01:09 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2018-08-26 09:24 am (UTC)[That panic he felt as the sedative took over, and when he woke up altered, is going to live with him for a long time.]
Trust me, there are worse things than pain.
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Date: 2018-08-28 09:50 pm (UTC)...It was meant to be.
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Date: 2018-08-29 02:01 pm (UTC)[He doesn't think that Stephen is an inherently cruel person, he just lacks Bucky's perspective on the situation. It's to be expected, he'd be more worried if he did understand the perspective.]
Wouldn't have let you do it otherwise.
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Date: 2018-08-29 04:10 pm (UTC)I'm glad that you did. That you let me do it that way. I couldn't...after the last time. The nightmares. I couldn't do that again.
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Date: 2018-08-31 12:08 pm (UTC)It doesn't help knowing that it was my choice?
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Date: 2018-09-01 08:39 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2018-09-10 01:49 pm (UTC)[He's honestly curious about that, because he hadn't cried out and he'd stayed still even under the chains.]
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Date: 2018-09-18 03:05 am (UTC)[He couldn't compartmentalize. Couldn't turn off the part of his brain that saw Bucky as a person and look at his body purely as something to be fixed.
He doesn't think that will go over well.]
You were awake and I knew it. Of course it was different.
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Date: 2018-09-18 08:00 am (UTC)I won't ask you to do it again.
[Though the anaesthetic for his arm was a one off.]
Hopefully I won't need it again.
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Date: 2018-09-25 02:23 am (UTC)[Stephen sighs heavily at that. Need it...he won't do it again. Can't. But if it was the only way, if Bucky's life was in danger....]
Hell.
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Date: 2018-09-26 08:04 am (UTC)[He doesn't follow Stephen's train of thought, so he has no idea where that sudden exclamation came from.]
What is it?
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Date: 2018-10-13 02:37 am (UTC)[Or he'd do it. But he won't backtrack by saying so out loud. Stephen just shakes his head.]
I've done a lot of things I never thought I would. That's not one I want to repeat.
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Date: 2018-10-17 03:21 pm (UTC)I hope not too.
[He shifts from foot to foot slightly, clearly uncomfortable.]
I should go.
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Date: 2018-10-19 01:24 am (UTC)[Sorry Bucky he's not any less awkward right now.]