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cw: suicidal ideations/discussion of suicide

[jumpthegun]

[Except he's really not fine at all, and there's a hysterical giggle that wants out at that advice. As many times as John had contemplated it...]

I know. Sherlock's already done himself. Guess I'm more of a coward than I thought. He wanted me to live, anyway. He told me the only way to save him was to live.

[John's voice breaks, but it doesn't translate, blessedly. Dying for someone? John would do that in a heartbeat. Taking his own life? It's a much harder question, and it's one that's never gotten easier for him with time.]

cw discussion of suicide

[thewarningafter]

[And this right here is why Stephen should have gone to text himself. He does his best to choke off the little sound he makes in reply. Sherlock isn't exactly his favorite person, but he wasn't prepared for the news that the man's killed himself...or the implication that he's left John with his dead body.]

I'm sorry, that was -- I shouldn't have suggested it.

[jumpthegun]

[John takes a few deep breaths to calm himself and readjusts Sherlock's coat where it's partially draped around him. He needs to get himself under control. He shouldn't have said that.]

I'm upsetting you. I'm sorry, Stephen. Rest well tonight, okay? Keep warm. I'll talk to you again sometime soon.

[Hopefully.]

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Don't you dare apologize for that.

[Stephen's not keeping the best control over himself, in turn. Rest well, like this is going to be the night when he can actually sleep again. Like hell.]

[jumpthegun]

[John sighs.]

I told you something that wasn't your burden to bear. I know this isn't helping you. It was selfish. I'm sorry for that. I really only meant to tell you so you could take care of my patients.

[thewarningafter]

And I will, but you're allowed to upset people when you're --

[Deep breath. Couple of deep breaths.]

If there's any time to be selfish, I'd say it's now.

[jumpthegun]

It's really not, but thank you. You're very kind. Good night, Stephen. Please take care of yourself.

[And he'll disconnect.]