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You've reached Dr. Stephen Strange. Leave a message and my secretary will get back to you.

Date: 2017-11-14 05:00 pm (UTC)
termineur: (I don't wanna)
From: [personal profile] termineur
[ If he wasn't so manic, he probably wouldn't say anything- but then again, if he wasn't hit with this mania, they wouldn't be having this conversation at all. He sputters, distressed, for a moment- very unusual for him- before he spits out something he definitely didn't want to say. ]

I want to kill my dad. And I really want him to suffer. The memory, it was when I was five. He sold me to another couple for cash and then killed my mother and dumped her out on the road.

Every time I sleep, it's on repeat. That memory, over and over, and I just wake up thinking that I want to kill him for making me like this.

--damn it, that's not- it's not your problem. I don't really want to talk about it, but I talk anyway. And sometimes it's like I can't focus on anything else, so I just- I know you're not a psychiatrist. I don't think any psychiatrist would want to take me on. There's no fixing what's really wrong with me.
And that doesn't have anything to do with keeping me safe here, anyway. We can just focus on that.

Date: 2017-11-19 02:01 pm (UTC)
termineur: (Orly?)
From: [personal profile] termineur
[ Gabriel's feeling off-balance, and he's not sure at all what to do with the last thing Stephen says. There's a few seconds of awkward silence before he replies flatly: ]

Well, it seems like I've failed that test spectacularly.

[ That tone of voice is gone just as quickly. He doesn't want to linger on thinking about 'rising above his demons.' After this memory, he's not sure that's even possible. It feels hardwired into him to be a monster. ]

But- you said, though, that it makes sense with what's 'going on now'? What do you mean? Like the memory has to do with the way the mania's manifesting? Or- what I'm worried about?

Date: 2017-11-21 12:10 am (UTC)
termineur: (Got an idea)
From: [personal profile] termineur
[ In a couple weeks, Hannibal Lecter would be around. But Gabriel needed that professional's help like he needed a hole in the head. ]

Ah. Okay, right. So I should try not to fixate on it, then? I mean, like I said, I can't do anything about it, so- But what if it means I can't change? That everything I'm trying is useless because it's just in my genes?

[ Gabriel, that is the opposite of not fixating. He seems to realize this, at least. He sighs, a little shaky sounding, and runs a hand through his hair. ]

Don't- you don't need to answer that. What can I do to distract myself? That's the better question.

Date: 2017-11-26 07:53 pm (UTC)
termineur: (Brand New Day)
From: [personal profile] termineur
[ He's nodding as Stephen comes up with a plan, even though it's on audio. Okay, lithium. He can handle that. He's not sure the man can find a distraction for him, but- at the suggestion, he lets out a small, surprised laugh. ]

I did that when I first got here. But it's been so long and we keep having so many things interrupt us.

[ Like his unrecoverable knee injury, the time in the cells, so many times when he'd lost his ability to care about what was going on... ]

Yeah. That's a really good idea. I could use a refresher. Maybe I'll even take notes this time. Okay.

Date: 2017-12-02 06:28 pm (UTC)
termineur: (Accessing)
From: [personal profile] termineur
There's also Steph's information post- really good for the earlier days here- and various other collections people have put together...although most of them are gone now, so who knows if they stuck around. It's all there, just there's too much data to make meaningful connections.

[ It was extremely annoying, because nothing came out of all of it. There were too many theories bolstered by way too many events, and no good way to keep it organized. ]

Now that we've got more information about Andromeda and Winter, though, maybe a bigger pattern will emerge. It's worth a try, at least.

[ Good job, Stephen, you've successfully distracted him away from obsessing about his past. (at least for now) ]

Date: 2017-12-06 05:13 pm (UTC)
termineur: (tick)
From: [personal profile] termineur
Right, Beckett. I'll read through what was posted on the Network, hit him up after I get through everything else.

I didn't do the deepest dive when I first got here, either. I wonder if I'll be able to go all the way back to the first posts for the session. We've had all this data the whole time- maybe there's something important in there.

Date: 2017-12-08 11:33 pm (UTC)
termineur: (Comfortable)
From: [personal profile] termineur
Send it your way?

[ He remembers Stephen singing with House in the cells. Music isn't as important to him as books, but it was sure nice to have during that hard time. ]

You got it. And yeah, it's pretty hard to stay on top of what's happened when this town seems so intent to shake us like a snowglobe every time we get settled.

Date: 2017-12-12 12:07 am (UTC)
termineur: (Brand New Day)
From: [personal profile] termineur
[ Honestly? He regretted the snowglobe comment the moment he said it, so it's good Stephen's not pursuing it. ]

Oh yeah? I'd like that- sometimes a shed with a bunch of butcher hooks just really needs some music to liven it up. Or make us forget a bit that we're in a shed with hooks in the ceiling, anyway.

Date: 2017-12-14 07:07 pm (UTC)
termineur: (Convincing)
From: [personal profile] termineur
Yeah, I'd rather not think about it too hard, either. Especially since it's in the new residential area?

[ If it'd been in the industrial area, he would've rolled with it, but close to the high school? Yeah, let's do that not-thinking-about-it thing. He looks over the playlist and whistles. ]

Okay, you weren't kidding about collecting music. Thanks. Wonder if I could pester House for some classical sometime- not that I'm complaining about any music. What is 'eggy sounding thing'?

[ He starts it up and instantly regrets it, turning it off after about ten seconds. ]

My question stands.

Date: 2017-12-15 10:26 pm (UTC)
termineur: (Interrupting)
From: [personal profile] termineur
[ Gabriel chuckles, too- he's clearly doing better than he had been. In a few hours, he'll realize that talking over his concerns with Stephen really helped. ]

Clearly ahead of my time. Why am I not surprised it was Davesprite who put that together?

Okay, okay, I'm all set, I think. Thanks for pointing me another direction. I'll let you know if the mania changes at all.

Date: 2017-12-18 08:54 pm (UTC)
termineur: (Convincing)
From: [personal profile] termineur
[ He knows both of those things are true. And since Gabriel frequently needs help, he'll totally take it. ]

Sure. Stay warm, Stephen.

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